Every so often...
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telaryn...you just need to clean out the mental crap. ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
crevette and I were talking yesterday, and I mentioned about getting a playlist pulled together for the new laptop. Shawn Colvin's "Sonny Came Home" was on the radio, which got me thinking about another song that was kind of a theme for me in the mid-late 90's -- Paula Cole's "Me".
I am not the person who is singing
I am the silent one inside
I am not the one who laughs at people's jokes - I just pacify their egos
I am not my house, my car, my songs
They are only just stops along my way .
I am like the winter
I'm a dark cold female
With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave
CHORUS:
And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence
I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythmn
I am carrying my prayers
But you can't kill my spirit
It's soaring and it's strong
Like a mountain
I'll go on and on
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground
Chorus
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
That I love
I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better
Yes I know there's something better
Yes I know, yes i know, yes i know
That I love
But it's me
And it's me
But it's me
Just one of those songs that really speaks to me. Along with Triumph's "Magic Power", Edie Brickell's "What I Am" and Emerald Rose's "Never Underestimate a Woman With the Goddess in Her Eyes".
Don't have a bunch of time before Robin gets off the mat (I'm at Choi), but it's amazing the number we can do on ourselves mentally and emotionally. It's almost like on some level we're programmed for self-sabotage.
Today was a good day. I'm feeling very balanced -- a feeling I don't get nearly as often as I like, but that I'm going to take and run with as long as I can.
Oh, and the Jason/Diane story has a working title -- "Convicted in Absentia".
crevette and I were talking yesterday, and I mentioned about getting a playlist pulled together for the new laptop. Shawn Colvin's "Sonny Came Home" was on the radio, which got me thinking about another song that was kind of a theme for me in the mid-late 90's -- Paula Cole's "Me".I am not the person who is singing
I am the silent one inside
I am not the one who laughs at people's jokes - I just pacify their egos
I am not my house, my car, my songs
They are only just stops along my way .
I am like the winter
I'm a dark cold female
With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave
CHORUS:
And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence
I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythmn
I am carrying my prayers
But you can't kill my spirit
It's soaring and it's strong
Like a mountain
I'll go on and on
But when my wings are folded
The brightly colored moth
Blends into the dirt into the ground
Chorus
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too shy
To ask for the thing i love
That I love
I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better
Yes I know there's something better
Yes I know, yes i know, yes i know
That I love
But it's me
And it's me
But it's me
Just one of those songs that really speaks to me. Along with Triumph's "Magic Power", Edie Brickell's "What I Am" and Emerald Rose's "Never Underestimate a Woman With the Goddess in Her Eyes".
Don't have a bunch of time before Robin gets off the mat (I'm at Choi), but it's amazing the number we can do on ourselves mentally and emotionally. It's almost like on some level we're programmed for self-sabotage.
Today was a good day. I'm feeling very balanced -- a feeling I don't get nearly as often as I like, but that I'm going to take and run with as long as I can.
Oh, and the Jason/Diane story has a working title -- "Convicted in Absentia".
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